Saturday, June 23, 2007

Work All Day, Play All Night

Abbey, Jen, Ben, and Jess discuss reading our work aloud. (Except Jen appears to be on her cell phone.)

Leland arrives and offers gnome love.

Jen and Gili together without the use of g-chat.

Mentor stalkers, Gili and Abbey bond over their creepy behavior.

Adorable Billy and the gnome.

A tasty gnome treat for me.


Remember in the eighties (before digicams) when you could take a picture at the same time as someone else and their head would look like an explosion? I tried to reorchestrate that with Dan to no avail.



Abbey's back to school bag. Jen's cool foot.

Friday, June 22, 2007

trashy, gossipy blogger returns to school





(Here’s a picture of the merchandise in question. The avocado was purchased as non-organic. The cherries were purchased as grapes. The water was flat-out stolen. Deal with it. I guess I’m actually the one trying to deal with it.)

Third residency has begun! Don Share read tonight and he mentioned trashy, gossipy blogs and I thought about my blog and felt guilty but Sara leaned over and said she loved my blog, so there!

Good stuff seeing all these silly writerly folks. I can’t get over how happy I am to reunite. I began my evening with Sara G and Alana. We had some much needed pre-workshop venting over coffee at Simon's.

Big hugs with Michael and the love-fest with Brian has begun (at least on my end).

After the reception in which they've added wine to the menu (way to go, Steven!), Jessica helped me to do the right thing and we attended the reading. Then off to our first night at Cambridge Common for more wine and catching up.

I attempted to help Jen find a man thanks to her little gnome friend, Seamus (pictures to follow soon). This will be an exciting evening adventure for the next nine days.

I was seriously ogled by a scary, scary man with little fear and a lot of ogling to do. He followed us outside when we left and I was afraid he would follow us home, but he let it go. Thank goodness for Sara and Jess. Jess offered to make out with me to ward him off, but I let her know I am now officially exclusive. She reminded me that she’s engaged. It was her idea! (She’s going to be thrilled that this made it onto the blog, I’m sure.)

New music from Jen: The Replacements, Georgie James, Annie, and more
Some possible reading material: Deborah Eisenberg. Anybody know her writing?
Person who is online too much: Aimee
Most honored moment so far: Jen forwarded one of my stories to two friends. (I’m famous!)
New obsession: the ask.com commercial featuring Kato Kaelin. (Can you tell that I haven’t been around television in a long time?)
Loving that she busted out of the quiet zone: Breda

Thursday, June 21, 2007

More Me Time





Another perfect, calm day in Cambridge. Went for my morning run and then walked around town reacquainting myself. I got coffee at my favorite local coffee shop (Simon’s), found a cute vintage dress for cheap (this is not New York!), browsed around bookstores, stole produce in the self checkout line at Shaw’s, and read for school.

I met up with Kimberley after work and we walked around Harvard Square until I found a good enough sandwich for the movies. I ended up with tuna fish on a baguette. (What kind of deli doesn’t have pumpernickel? There is no punch line.)

Right as we were leaving the deli, we ran into the famous Olga, who is a friend of my family’s and also the caterer for the Red Sox. I’d never met her before and she freaked out about how much I look like my parents. I used to get that I look like my dad, but now I guess I also resemble mom. Anyway, Olga’s great. I had already met her gorgeous daughter who I dreamed of making into my own personal shopper but was too shy to ask. Now I’ve met the root.

Kimberley went to her acting class and I saw Away From Her, which none of my New York friends were interested in going to with me. I got to the theater early enough to watch the longest army recruitment video I’ve ever seen. By the end, I was ready to join. I mean, I would really be in shape, you know?

The movie was mostly well done and smart. I could totally see Alice Munro all over it, which is a compliment. It’s definitely an old lady film and I was the youngest person there by far. (I always get a bit melancholy when I go to the movies alone.)

I walked home in the rain. (Kimberley said today is the first real day of summer. Is that true?) Here are some pictures from my day. (Look! A baby on a leash because Cambridge is a really dangerous place.) (And a picture of my dirty foot after a day of walking around in my flip-flops. I'm so hardcore.)

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Remember The Time I Thought That I Could Be Happy Living In Boston?






Well, I was wrong. But it is good to be back. At least in the past fifteen minutes that I've actually spent at my sister's since arriving, I've been calm and content. I forgot how much I feel like I'm at a summer resort at Kimberley's. She's not here but I let myself in with the old key saying I invented ("Silver stay down, gold go up"). I'm sitting on the porch, the birds are chirping (not pigeons) and the sun is beginning to set. This is Cambridge.

Mostly I sat around and did nothing on the train. Here are some pictures and an angsty post to prove it:

I thought about taking the bus because the last time I took Amtrak, my train hit and killed a fifteen-year old boy. (I believe his name was Robert Castro.) But thinking about Aimee’s bus rides to and from Boston reminded me of how unbearable that mode of transportation can be. So I’m back on the train.

So far the ride has been quiet and I’ve been in a contemplative mood, watching Connecticut and all of its New Englandness fly by. The last time I was out of New York was for my second residency and I’m definitely due for a break.

I don’t know what this feeling is, an emptiness like I forgot to pack something for the trip or maybe this is just that old railroad mood I’ve almost forgotten about. Remember when I was living at Kimberley’s and commuting back and forth for job interviews and housing searches? In just seven months, my life has completely changed.

For some reason, I can’t get into my book, A Blind Man Can See How Much I Love You by Amy Bloom. Right now, I’d rather sit back, turn up the Ipod and stare out the window.

Note to Breda: I'm back. I should be blogging regularly now that I'm away from New York's hustle. Thanks for your patience and dedication.

Movie to not watch ever: Escape From New York

Movie for romance: Paris, je t'aime

Music to ride the rails: The Littlest Birds by The Be Good Tanyas

Tonight's Goals: Empty voice mailbox, take bath, go to sleep.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I Guess I've Been Hiding

What to say, what to say??

Deb scolded me for not writing on ye olde bloge (that's Latin), so here you go, Deb.

My phone bill was over 200 bucks so I've cut off another form of communication. I won't be using my phone before 9 pm weekdays for the month. Punishment for impulsive behavior. I hope I learn a lesson.

My manuscripts are in! After receiving feedback from Jen G, I can't wait for my workshop. And I am ready to be smitten about Brian. Semester three is going to be solid gold.

I read Love Invents Us by Amy Bloom because Aimee said I'm like the main character (at least the younger version of her). The book was surprisingly inspiring and helped me slow down and develop one of my characters.

I now know that I have rooftop access on my building. For a basement dweller, this is kind of crucial to maintaining some degree of mental stability.

Um, what else? I'm thinking about applying to a bunch of artist housing lotteries. Does anyone know about these? If I could get cheaper housing, I wouldn't have to work full time and then I could write more. If you have any leads, please let me know.

I leave for Boston next week. I'm excited to see my big sister and my residency friends and of course, my beautiful genius mentor, Brian. (Who puts all her eggs in one basket?)

Footloose kind of took up my life for a week. My story refers to the movie. Seeing this film in my current life is really different than my memories of Kevin Bacon as a child. If you haven't seen it lately, by all means. You don't know what you're missing!

Truth: I've been a little down since I found out I have yet another small medical problem. I forgot that going to doctors also means learning what's wrong instead of what's right with my body. I'll be having minor surgery in August and I'm a bit daunted. Even though the results were good, the whole biopsy thing burnt me out. I hate to be a Negative Nancy, especially because it's not a very big deal in the scheme of medical stuff, but there you have it.

A pigeon pooped on me today. Good luck, right?

Been listening to: Jens Lekman
Been reading: workshop manuscripts
Been watching: Pee-wee's Playhouse (I heart Penny.)
Best new DVD purchase: Welcome Home, Roxy Carmichael

Friday, June 01, 2007

Online Presence

I don't have an online presence. It's complicated why this is the case and I don't want to go into it, but I do want one. How do I go about becoming an online star?

Two days ago I found out that I'm somewhat popular anyway. According to Aimee, the second highest reason that people visit her website is that they are searching for me.

Gili Warsett Gili Warsett Gili Warsett
Gili Warsett Gili Warsett Gili Warsett

That's me.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Paulette Comes To Town!

Paulette had a mimosa before dinner.
She wanted me to show off my tattoos.
Aimee looked pretty in Ellen's dress. Paulette worried that too many Koreans would break the camera. My camera didn't break.
Maybe Ching-In was weirded out by our weird Oberlin ways.
Aimee yelled at me for taking too many pictures.
Paulette gave me a beautiful cloth thingy. I'm going to take it to Fire Island tomorrow.
This is the Lady's Special. So much good food for 20 bucks! (This is only the entree.)
Another Obie, David met up with us for underwear shopping at Duane Reade.
My beautiful new flip-flops. (Thanks, Aimee for walking me through my never-ending shoe-shopping excursion.)
Happy with our matching undies.
Bye, Paulette! Come back soon!
xoxo

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Gi Gets Her Haircut (Just Like The Rest of The Dream Team)

Veronica and Gili in the Housing Works basement bathroom, pre-cut
My hairdresser is very important. The haircutting must wait until the conversation in Romanian is over.
post haircut
switch sides, snip a few more hairs.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Gili Does Her Schoolwork: Proof

I have to admit, I wasn’t looking forward to tonight’s reading. The only time I ever set foot in a Barnes and Noble is for one of these author events, and having had a bad experience at the Lethem reading at B &N in Union Square, I was anticipating a disaster at the branch in Astor Place. I had heard of Lydia Davis from another Lesley student, Jen Girdish who had recently interviewed her for Venus Magazine. Her new book, Varieties of Disturbance has been getting a lot of press, and Davis’ recent translation of Proust’s Swann’s Way has contributed to her success. I had read her recent interview in Time Out New York, but hadn’t been able to get a real sense of her from the brief piece.

Like the other two Barnes and Nobles readings I’ve attended during the semester, the reading was introduced by a staff member, who clearly had not read Lydia Davis’ work since she was unable to pronounce one of Davis’ titles, and may have printed out a summary of the author from the author bio on the back of Davis’ new book. After we were encouraged to help the Barnes and Nobles hostess welcome the author, positions were switched at the podium and I craned my neck over the flat and filled rows of folding chairs in order to see the author.

The chairs had not been staggered and situated in the middle of a crowd of about one hundred people, I had to make an effort to see the small woman standing before us. Davis opened up with two charming jokes. “Reading itself is always an anti-climax after the introduction.” The audience laughed and she continued. “My own cell phone is still turned on but I think the only people who would call me are actually in the audience.” I warmed up to her right away. It was as if she knew the best way to get us to turn off our phones was to poke fun at herself. It was indirect, adorable, and smart. I began to relax.

Davis’ new book is composed of short-short prose pieces, often a chain of three or four sentences, at times a bit longer and at others, shorter still. She began the reading with the first story in her book, “A Man From Her Past.” “I think Mother is flirting with a man from her past who is not Father,” Davis writes. The audience laughed with hesitation. Quickly we learn that Mother is ninety-four years old, but “her capacity for betrayal is still young and fresh.” And so the tone is set. Davis has a sense of humor but there is clearly a poignancy she hopes to express.

Maybe because there are so many breaks in between her pieces, Davis interjects thoughts on writing, her process, and her inspiration. It’s almost as if she’s taking cues from an interviewer, but she is simply sharing her ideas. “A lot of these stories are true. I just select from life. It’s not all of life, just selections.” Even the way she says this, in a conversational and comforting tone, creates a sense of respect between the author and myself. She isn’t trying to keep secrets from us and she doesn’t seem to be hoping to prove herself. Even though she is horrible at eye contact, and even though I have to work hard in order to look at her, I get the sense she is talking directly to each of us. Davis is soft-spoken, but not quiet, and there is the slightest tremble in her voice that never goes away throughout the reading, which makes me think she is not nervous but that this is part of the way she speaks.

Because this is Barnes and Noble, the reading cannot be too good. There are a slew of cell phones that go off. The floors are wooden and creaky, and people are shifting and bustling here and there. But the hum of the escalator adds to the cadence of Davis’ voice.

Davis mentions that she began taking herself serious as a writer in college. She didn’t start writing very short pieces until five years after she had graduated. She had read Kafka, but felt that he was not someone to imitate. He had his own style and the short-short story was off-limits. Then she read Russell Edson. Of his stories, she comments, “some of them are just plain silly but others hit you really hard. He sort of gives you a way in to try something different.” After I read her work, I may see if I can get my hands on Edson’s.

She describes one of her stories as the “perils of self-consciousness,” and when she says things like this, she does not look at anyone in particular. I would not go so far as to call her sheepish, but she is definitely mild in personality and most comfortable with letting her words establish her personality.

Her final piece is called “Insomnia” and it may be my favorite. In one line, she has expressed a feeling that I have suffered many nights of my life. “My body aches so it must be this heavy bed pressing up against me.”

Consistently darling, she opens up the Q and A with, “So if you want to ask questions, the easier the better.” Davis’ reading exceeded my expectations. She is a quiet force and a reminder to take time with language, to enjoy the music in the words, to find humor and beauty in the awkward and the strange. For once, Barnes and Nobles did something right. Or maybe it was simply Lydia Davis. In forty-five minutes, I felt like I had made a friend.

Catching You Up

I've been slacking on my blog again. Let's see, news:

The Claude Cahun exhibit was a mega-disappointment. It turned out it was just a silly slide show without her actual work being displayed. And we couldn't even see the show because there were safety concerns about the electric wires in the garden (where it took place) being dangerous from the rain. I did get a recently published book about her for a discounted price.

Kasey is in town. It's nice to see a Minneapolis friend after six months. He's got a new calm and positive state of being and he's inspired me to focus on my writing as he is very involved in his art. He's staying in New York for three weeks with his art class, and I think I'm going to try to follow them around and go to fun art things.

I've seen a lot of Aimee since she's been back. Loving that. Except every time she sees me I'm more and more unshowered and more and more sleepy. But after my beautiful weekend, I'm fresh and in better shape.

Tompkins Square Park has become my main destination for people-watching, writing, reading, sun-bathing. I was listening to a guy talk about how much the park has changed in the past twenty years. It's nice to get a historical perspective.

Cornelius was being loud the other night and I was trying to hold her down. She pulled away and accidentally scratched my nose. Now I'm gashed across my face. It drew blood. Compresses were involved.

More romance. You know. Good stuff. Feeling happy.

song: Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie Gibson
book: Safety of Objects by A.M. Homes
conspiracy: a scarcity of Reed's Ginger Chews in New York. Perhaps a turf war? Is it ridiculous to order ginger chews in bulk? I'm thinking I'll buy 25 packs.
movie: Space is the Place
tonight: going to hear Lydia Davis read.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Timeline of a Lump


(The red marking on my back is the best shot of the stitches that I could take.)

January 2007: Discover strange and large lump on my back while staying with my sister in Boston. Compare backs with Kimberley and discover she doesn’t have a matching one.

March 2007: Finally remember to show my dad my lump. He says it’s nothing to worry about.

April 2007: Get alarming phone call from father saying I need a doctor’s appointment. He’s been doing research and he wants to make sure I don’t have cancer.

April 4, 2007: Visit E.R. and after two doctors examine my back, find out I have to go see another doctor to get a biopsy.

April 23, 2007: Go to scariest doctor on the planet who makes Kimberley and I cry. Not only does he not want to do a biopsy, he doesn’t even want to talk about the lump. I have never felt a handshake this limp. The man is garbage as far as I’m concerned.

May 3, 2007: Go back to the same office where scary evil doctor works and meet the other doctor, who happens to be the most perfect doctor in the world. Jekyll and Hyde? She not only gives me tons of attention and care, she offers to do a biopsy on the spot. I’m terrified but keep my cool and the procedure is painless. She answers all my questions and treats me like I’m her favorite patient.

May 14, 2007: My dad examines my back again and flips out. It seems that since the biopsy, the lump has virtually disappeared. We are pleasantly puzzled.

May 17, 2007: Back to my favorite doctor in the universe to get my biopsy stitches removed and to find out what the deal is with my disappearing lump. Turns out it was a lipoma (fatty back) and the doctor was kind enough to remove the lump completely when she tested it. The stitches are out. Everything's good. Health is restored! Thanks for all the support and love.

songs of the day:
Baby Got Back: Sir Mix-A-Lot
Back in Your Life: Jonathan Richman
Back To Life, Back To Reality: En Vogue

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Attitude Problem

I was telling Jen G. that I need a new attitude about writing. I'm in this program because I want to be a writer and I've been acting like my professors are trying to punish me by forcing me to do my work. Jen said that sometimes she treats the program like she has to take out the trash or change the cat litter. We both agreed that sometimes we get more satisfaction from taking out the litter. This is all going to change now that I'm in a new semester. I want to get as much as I can out of my school while I still have the feedback and attention of my mentors.

My parents have come and gone. I still think that they should move here, but it's looking less and less likely. I'm still unclear why this is the case. (Happy birthday, Mom!)

(I just squirt the juice of my orange into my eye.)

Aimee's away in Boston being artsy. Kim leaves for Amsterdam soon. Kasey comes to town this weekend. Then Paulette graces New York with her genius self. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing still and everything/one is moving around me. (So self-centered am I.)

I've started running again and I feel great. It's beautiful and warm. I've been appreciating the East River.

I've reinstated the old canola oil trick with Cornelius and last night she slept through the night. All praise! Plus I figured out how to open a screened window, so for the first time in six months, I have "fresh" air in my apartment.

Big News: Riva might start a blog someday!

Listening to: Stay Monkey by Julie Ruin
(I need to get out the digicam, since I don't have any pictures to post right now.)

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Best Movie Of The Year (If Not Longer):

I Don't Want To Sleep Alone

Also, happy Mother's Day to the best mom in the world. (My mom.)

And congratulations to my favorite droplet, Aimee. You're a star!

And and and way to channel me, Kim! Your life is in full swing.

song: Stay Monkey by Julie Ruin
book: Low Life by Luc Sante

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Landing My Slacker Ship


Totally incapable of decorating. I know, I know, submissions are due tomorrow and I need to be concentrating. I AM. Kind of.

I hung up these nice mobile paper squares from a girl I know named Aimee.

New idea: go to school to become a high school English teacher. Teach at a magnet arts school in New York. Realistic? Probably not.

I get Monday and Tuesday off because work was foolish. Yea! More time to slack off, I mean finish my schoolwork. This semester is just about over. Hooray for a fresh start.

Time to write more letters. And make phone calls.

-watched Brick last night. Meh.
-listening too much to: PJ Harvey (who's surprised?)
-reading whatever I feel like since I'm having a quick break. tonight I'll start Another Bullshit Night In Suck City.
-today's eats: tuna fish, chickpeas with goddess dressing, and granola with soy yogurt. what a life I lead.

P.S. I have a laundry question. Please explain your laundry process here. For example, I put the clothes in and then put in two cups of detergent. Joe puts the clothes in and then one cup of detergent. Then during the wash cycle, he adds another cup. Jen G. only puts one cup in at the very beginning. Aimee tried to tell me that I don't even need detergent because she's a dirty hippie. Anyone else?

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Cloudless Skies

Sometimes you have to go through the worst situations in order to have really good ones. I have found my favorite doctor in New York. Sure, she’s only the second one I’ve been to, but I couldn’t have asked for a better visit. Dr. Dacko performed a biopsy on my back, not because she thought it was necessary at all, but because I was worried and she wanted to let me know that I had nothing to worry about. I realized as I was walking to her office that I was actually incredibly scared, especially after my last visit. This time I went alone and I could feel all this anxiety rising up in me. When I decided to do the biopsy, I wished someone was there to hold my hand, but she walked me through it and I felt completely safe. Now I have a couple of stitches in my back and I’m waiting for the numbing solution to wear off and the soreness to begin. I’ll know the results in two weeks.

Today is my sister’s 31 birthday. I love her so much and hope that this is an amazing year for her. She’s strong, smart, wise, patient, sensitive, and loving. And many other things. Happy birthday, big sister! Love you.

Last night Joe and I flew a kite in Battery Park. This spot is supposed to be rated best for kite-flying, but we had mixed results. There wasn’t a ton of open area and one woman cursed at us as the kite swooped down and almost hit her. We found a grassy area but there was a sign warning “No Active Recreation.” We had no idea what that meant. Why active? If we lay down and flew a kite at the same time, would that be passive? There was another nice spot next to this one and no sign warning us to stay off, so we flew the finicky kite a little more. Then we watched the sunset and the boats going by. (I forgot the digi-cam. Next time.)

Maybe Saturn Return isn’t going to be so bad after all. Two and a half weeks after my birthday, things are really looking up.

Maybe it’s the minor medical procedure I had today, but I’m feeling very calm and good and loved. Thanks for supporting me. I feel so lucky to have my life.

~Song of the evening: The Morning of Our Lives by Jonathan Richman
~Time for a new book. Any fiction suggestions that are just divine?
~Recent movie screenings: Shortbus (meh) and Science of Sleep (great eye candy and sweet, but might have gone on a bit long for my taste.)

Tonight I’m probably going to go out with Kim and some other folks. I feel like I haven’t seen her in forever. I need to see how my back is feeling before I decide what to do.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

feelings.thoughts.impressions. Today:

anecdote from Jew camp (what am I wanting to reveal?)
biggest fear in the morning: someone/anyone is mad at me
moving slowly through work
moving slowly through work
confront/don't confront
pigeons above me at lunch
free treats
josephine on my ipod. six times.
someone else's socks
communication is tiresome or is it tiring? the difference?
sister's life changes again.
chickpeas and chocolate in bed.
reading but not lost in my book/wishing i was.
steadiness from aimee. aimee = constant. surprised.
movie time.
rain.
thunder.
thunder.
writing.
sleep? not yet. instead, build a fort of planets over my bed.
thunder.
sleep soon.