Thursday, October 12, 2006

Right Around The Corner = The Time Of My Life



Oh my goodness, oh my goodness! I have so much to write. But I’m saving it for tomorrow. Here’s the exciting news!

I’m moving to a basement studio in the east village! Believe it!

And it’s really reasonably priced and not as small as it could be. I am freaking out!

I was texting a bunch of people on the train home and my friend Kim’s text made me cry. When I told her I’m afraid of the move, she texted, “Don’t b scared-the time of yr life is right around the corner, my friend. Gili + nyc= awesomeness!”

Here are some craigslist pictures of my new home. Sure, it’s not fancy pantsy, but come on, this is new york, what do you want from me?

I’m tired and wired and need sleep. I haven’t called a friend of mine back in Minneapolis for a few days because I had a bad cold and then I was afraid I would start crying on the phone and not be able to stop, but now all is looking up, so I’m free to socialize again. Did I mention I’m moving for real? November 9th, baby. I hope Kim is right.

P.S. Riva recommended The Killer’s Tears, another young adult book that’s almost on the same amazing level as Walk Two Moons. Definitely check it out for all you new Walk Two Moons fans.

P.P.S. Song for train rides: Colors and the Kids by Cat Power

P.P.P.S. I had a poppyseed hammentaschen today (and it was only two blocks from my new home!!!) I have found heaven.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Best Sukkah In Somerville, Hands Down


perfection

our etrog (the lemon)

Kimberley and the Hanging Produce

Me and the unbreakable Sukkot chain

Hottest Sukkah Ever!

p.s. truth be told, we didn't actually know what sukkot was about. we googled it last night and discovered (surprise, surprise) it has something to do with wandering in the desert and building huts. i'm not sure how it became a fall harvest celebration or what bananas and apples have to do with it, but who cares?
p.p.s. I saved Kimberley from plummeting to her death as she pasted the stars to the ceiling of our Sukkah.
p.p.p.s. last night Kimberley and I wrote several Sukkot Haiku. We didn't write them down, it was more of an oral thing. Sadly, I can't remember them now.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

It's Good To Be A Jew! (Also Titled I'm Co-President of The No More Boundary Pushers Club, Wanna Join?)

Friday:
*Got MORE incredible art from Aimee. The envelope she sent has been going back and forth between us and is well loved. Artists are so smart. Especially Aimee.

*Received feedback from my mentor. He’s a fan of my revisions, which is such a relief. I thought this was my worst submission period, but he didn’t agree. One of my stories is really coming together. Now, I have to dive into another one.

*Went dancing with Kimberley. We got there and it was pretty empty. We rocked out even though the music sucked. Then events went as follows:
-The music keeps sucking so K and I ask if we can suggest a song or two. The DJ lady insisted that she had already picked out the music for the rest of the night!
-(Many of the men at this place have tried to hit on me or my sister and have gotten the clear message that we’re not interested. There are only two guys that we are slightly interested in, but not really. K’s pick is too shy and my pick is too much of a guy, so I can’t really spend my time pursuing him. I’m there to dance with K and that’s that.) One of the guys doesn’t know me at all and last night he decided to try and dance with me.

Him: wanna dance?
Me: no
Him: it could be fun
Me: no
Him: have you been here before?
Me: yes
Him: sure you don’t want to dance?
I walk away. I already AM having fun. I already AM dancing. Leave me alone!!! What is with this boundary pusher epidemic? No means no! Can't a couple of women have fun without men getting all up in our business?)

-Then I really wanted to go. They didn’t want to play good music and the sleazy men were in attack mode.
-Before we left, we must steal from these evil dancing people. So K and I grab two bags of Pepperidge Farms cookies and head out the door.
-But wait! Landmine at the bus stop! Shuva, one of the innocent dancers, is waiting at the bus stop. So we hide the bags of cookies in our coats (mine was under my armpit) and keep them there through the bus ride home). She’s talking on and on (her English is not great and we have no idea what she’s saying) but meanwhile, our coats are bulging with stolen treats.
-We donated one bag of cookies to the homeless (so Robin Hood of us) and kept the ginger men cookies for ourselves, promptly eating ¾ of the bag upon entering K’s home.

Saturday:

*Kimberley and I are celebrating Sukkot, one of my favorite Jewish holidays! As soon as K gets back from acupuncture, we are converting her porch into a Sukkah.

*Today we bought: 6 apples, a bunch of bananas, a lemon, construction paper (very important for making paper chains, which are an essential Sukkot ingredient. see picture), shiny stars, white grape juice, string, and tape. We’re going to collect leaves and tape them to the porch. And make a little bowl of spices to add to the overall autumn-ness of the event.

*Later, we’re going to make Sukkot Kugel and pumpkin muffins and say some prayers under our beautiful Sukkah. We’re supposed to sleep under the Sukkah and watch the stars, but I think that’s a little too Ortho for us.

*A very happy Sukkot to all the Jews and Jews for Jesus in the crowd!

Songs of the day:
The Chain: Fleetwood Mac (in honor of construction paper chains for Sukkot)
Autumn Sweater: Yo La Tengo (in honor of autumn)
Maneater: Hall & Oates (in honor of K and my response to gross men)

Friday, October 06, 2006

Bathing With Smart Writers

Yesterday:
*Spent two hours and ten minutes in the bathtub with Katherine Anne Porter. Pale Horse, Pale Rider is so intense. All three stories in the collection blew me away.
*Ate about half a box of Kashi Heart to Heart honey roasted cereal (is anyone else addicted to this?)

Today:
*Procrastinating on my annotation by writing about Porter on my blog. (I just read online that she was friends with a Nazi. A friend of the Nazis is no friend of mine. And she loved horses! Now, that's a deal-breaker. But it's inescapable, she was an incredible writer.)
*Starting my big old Cheever book (perhaps another bath is in order).
*Revise, revise, revise my own work
*Drink more coffee
*Maybe go dancing again with Kimberley and Debbie. (Since I didn't run this morning, I need to shake my tush.)
*I promised myself no internet until I finished my outline for my Porter annotation. I've got to get off of this computer before it swallows me whole.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

"Hey! Do You Want To Come Out, and Play The Game? It's Never Too Late."


Fall is here. This weekend the leaves are supposed to change colors in a big way. Fall is my second favorite season after
Spring because I like hot apple cider, quilts/snuggling, hot baths, orange and yellow and red.

For the few of you that might have noticed, I was without my phone for the past week. I wasn't really without it, but I wasn't feeling like I could communicate with the outer world. While I was in seclusion, I read and wrote a lot, ran daily, ate lots of bananas (great for depression), and atoned on Yom Kippur.

Kimberley and I got pedicures yesterday (Kimberley's first time) and went dancing. I love my sister a lot and she's totally my match humor-wise. For whatever reason, Kimberley (sometimes) introduces herself as "Palestine." She likes to see how people will react. It kind of reminds me of another person (you know who you are) who made up stories in college about being married off after her senior year. Anyway, Kimberley told the pedicure people that her name is Palestine. That's my brilliant sister.

Whoever left "Century Plant" on my voice mail, this morning you made me cry (in a good way). I think there's only one possible person who would think to do that. If you haven't seen "Camp" the movie, it's not to be missed. If you were an arts school/arts camp kid, this movie is for you. Person who left message, how did you call me from a Virginia phone number? I'm confused. I'm no longer cell phone free. Let's talk.

I've been noticing a dramatic increase in melancholy on the blogs I read. Is there something collective going on (like when girls living together get their period at the same time)? Anyway, I hope it's a passing thing. My spirits are starting to lift.

Middle of next week, I go back to New York for the third housing attempt. Let the games begin/continue.

favorite hair care product: Frizz Ease Step 2 Conditioner
favorite bubble bath product: Aveda Energizing Body Cleanser

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

happy vs. HAPPY; Spork vs. Spark


I was reading in Kimberley’s Stanford alumni magazine about this psychology professor, Jeanne Tsai, who studies happiness. She says, “European-Americans aspire more often to a high-energy elation… However people raised in more collective Asian cultures aspire more often to a tranquil joy.” I’m definitely Euro-American based on that analysis (and on everything else), but ever since I read that article, I’ve been really aware of my ideas of happiness. I’m trying to slow my pace and feel good about my life. Mostly, the big change is I’m taking baths almost every night. But I can feel myself moving through the world differently.

Speaking of this slower pace, sometimes I feel like I’ve got so much energy, there isn’t room for others to relate to me. I’ve been thinking about the difference between a spork and a spark. (The dictionary says a spork is a combination of a spoon and a fork and a spark is an electrical discharge.) I think some of my relationships tend to be more sporky than sparky. Here are my own definitions:

A spork relationship: One in which two things try to fit together but don’t. As one unit, they are still functional, with their own unique humor, but a spork relationship is not sustainable or practical. It’s unheard of for most people to use sporks instead of spoons and forks. There just isn’t a demand. Spork relationships can be fun and silly, but they exist based on their tchotchke appeal more on anything else.

A spark relationship: Full of stimulation. Long lasting based on a mutual desire to discover new things about each other. The key word is “mutual”. Art, fire, electricity, change, and in most cases life require a spark.

So my Rosh Hashanah goals include:
-Learning to find a balance between a high-energy and a tranquil sense of happiness
-Creating more spark relationships

Friday, September 29, 2006

Losing A Best Friend

There’s nothing easy about ending a friendship. It’s been really hard to go from being attached at the hip to someone for four years to knowing it’s all over. One of the worst parts is that my whole idea of the person has changed. I think in a lot of ways I was blind to certain elements of the person and to our relationship. I’m a believer and I put a lot of work into relationships, but sometimes I don’t know when to let things go. This is the time when I evaluate what’s happened and also let myself grieve. I want to feel like I’ve learned and that I won’t make the same mistakes again.

Every day is different now. I was talking to a Bay Area friend of mine the other night and she said that age 27 is the year of really high highs and really low lows. It’s completely true. I’d like to move out of that soon. Maybe I can fake it and pretend my birthday is sooner than April.

I was saying to someone that it’s weird thinking about how people break-up every day all over the world. Sometimes I think that I’ll be better off alone for a long time. I thought I would want to get in another relationship, but I think I really need time to feel what it’s like to stand on my own two feet.

Some moments, I just want to sit around and let it all sink in. Others, I want to keep moving.

What I’ve got: my writing, good friends and family, the financial help to start a life in New York, and Cornelius.

I know everything will get better with time; I just wish I could be a more patient person.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Perfect Timing!

I just got home from a day of soy lattes, beautiful weather, running, and generally feeling better. I worked on my writing and feel like I'm catching up with the work I need to be doing.

Guess what! A new package arrived from Aimee. Happiness is art from a friend. This was the perfect time for me to get such an amazing gift. It's like you knew.... Thanks for brightening my day!

And a big thanks to everyone for being so supportive. I'm so lucky to have so much community and love and support.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

No More Settling

Per Aimee’s advice, I am going to visualize all the things that I want in my life. Now that I’m not settling for second rate, I will make a list of what I want in a house, a job, and a relationship. I’m finally going for what I truly want and I believe I can have it.

Housing: hardwood floors, studio, under $1000, close to subway, in Astoria, sunny, a happy home for Cornelius, closets, heat/hot water, reasonably priced utilities, quiet neighbors, safe building, big enough to have a queen size bed, bookshelves, a writing area, good cell phone reception, big enough kitchen area to cook for myself, space to do my belly dancing dvds

Job: respectful and trusting boss, stable hours, not a huge time-suck so I can work on my writing, smart coworkers, the work should be at least stimulating part of the time, good pay and benefits, nothing that puts evil into the world, not a horrible commute, my work stays at work

Relationship: someone who is as smart as me, someone I’m physically attracted to, an honest person who likes themselves, Really important: they must be passionate about something and willing to put their heart into it (this doesn’t have to be writing, it can be anything, but they can’t have a flat-line personality), someone who understands their own emotions and works on themselves, someone who challenges me and knows how to be a friend, someone who isn’t afraid or ashamed of who they are

I really feel like all these things are possible. I know they won’t all come right away, but now that I’m moving in the direction I want to be going, I feel like good things are out there. I’m going to try and read this list every other day to remind myself of the things I can have.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Desperate Times Call For Extraterrestrials

Um, so I am back in Minneapolis and I was cruising craigslist when I discovered this amazing job opportunity. Ah, the life of a writer. I did not make this up! It's a real craigslist ad. Well, dad and mom, is it better than temping?

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Looking for Co-Author - Great Book Idea

I've been working on a book for few years and need help to finish it.
It is about soul journeys of well-known people such as Einstein, Jefferson, Dali and another 9 celebrities. It is fiction. It is based on astrology, extraterrestrial societies (also Robert Shapiro) and (lyrical) fantasy. It describes journeys of these souls through the universe, and also the preparation for earth and the fascination with it. I have already minimum 20 pages on each person.
I published fiction before, but not in the States.
Thanks,
Zoran

Compensation: No Compensation - Agreement
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(So maybe temping would be better?)

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Never Forget Fascism It Is Here


This is a picture of the marquee in downtown Duluth. (We took this picture six months ago, but Duluth doesn't change that much.) I like the daily reminder that fascism still exists.

I'm hanging out in my hotel room in Duluth. I really love this town. It's so nice to be on Lake Superior. For the first time in my life, I visited a nursing home yesterday. I sat with Bubbie and Zaddie while they ate dinner. My zaddie is doing really well. It's nice to see him with more energy. They had just watched "Good Night and Good Luck" and my bubbie loved it but they both thought it was too long. I told her I was bored and she told me it's because I'm too young to understand. Naturally.

She really wants to see "Angels in America," but my copy is in Boston and I didn't bring it because I didn't know she wanted to see it. If she thinks "Good Night and Good Luck" is long, wait until she watches "Angels in America." But she can watch it in parts.

Today I went running and then I've been working on my Lorrie Moore annotation. I have to stop myself from saying how much I hate her book, but I do conclude with comments about how she seems to write a lot of things just to prove she's witty. I know my mentor will disagree since everyone at my school worships her, but there you have it.

It's good to finally get some work going. I've been slacking a lot since the great New York search. I think I'm going to find a place in Astoria. I'm interested to know more about Greenpoint. Is it too Oberliny? A few people have suggested it to me. Keep the suggestions coming. I've got to remember to visualize my dream job and home so I can make it happen.

Note to my big sister: I can't wait to see your new glasses!!!
Note to Riva: where are you?
Note to self: don't ever watch "The View" again.

Update: I just went to dinner with my hillarious Bubbie. She told me that she used to hang out with a couple of other girls when she was a kid. And they used to call people RB's (which is Rich Bitches). Naturally, I'm scandalized.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Life of the Unemployed Commuter

Last night I had a dream there were all these huge red birds (parrot-size, but not parrots, like gigantic cardinals or something) in my front yard in Florida. My mom, of course, was not interested in all, since she hates nature, but my dad got out all these bird books and we were trying to figure out what they were. One of the baby birds got stuck in my bathtub and we were trying to save it. We got the little guy out and he flew back to one of the gigantic nests in the tree. Then a bunch of tourists came to our house to look at the birds. Before we could get close, the birds flew away. What does it all mean?

I'm off to Minneapolis this morning. I hope that I don't die of dehydration since I'm not allowed liquids on my flights. Anything to help prevent terrorism.

(Oh! This fantastic picture is one of the many google images finds. Apparently, this man named Joe Cover was a boxer at the University of Minnesota. Maybe I'll see him while I'm there.)

I'm fighting a cold (from all the travel) so last night I watched four hours of Degrassi Junior High. I watched the one where Snake's brother comes out of the closet and it made me wonder what I was feeling when I sat through that episode in my 8th grade health class. I wonder if I felt embarassed or indifferent or what. Anyway, I'm glad in the end Snake accepts his brother and comes to understand that just because his all-star athlete/med-school/over-achieving brother is gay, doesn't mean he will be. And all in a half an hour's time! If I were Snake, I'd want to be gay because not only is his brother a homo, he's also better at everything than Snake.
I also watched the one where Wheels' parents get killed by a drunk driver. Covering all the bases. They really raised the stakes since Wheels was in a fight with his parents right before they died. I guess the lesson is never to fight with your parents. No, that can't be right.

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Music of the day:
Degrassi Junior High Theme Song

Wake up in the morning, feeling shy and lonely,
Gee, I gotta go to this school.
I don't think I can make it, don't think I can take,
I wonder what I'm gonna do.
But when I look around and see,
that someone is smiling right at me,
wait, someone talkin' to me, hey, I gotta new friend.
Everybody can succeed, all you gotta do is believe,
let's be honest with yourself, forget your fears and doubts,
come on give us a try at Degrassi Junior High.
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Off to the midwest...

Saturday, September 16, 2006

So Much For That...

Yesterday, I interviewed for a job only to learn that they thought I had an MSW. Hello, read my resume. No where does it indicate any such thing.

And, I spent a long time in the rain waiting for the possible roommate. After meeting and hanging out for an hour, I came back to Boston. She had to find out for sure if the place could have cats. She just called and said she's really sad to tell me they can't.

So back to square one.

I guess I'm moving in with the first person afterall.
Still no job...
Sigh.

Friday, September 15, 2006

98.9% Sure


Got home about 12:30. Really, really tired. I left this morning at 8:15 am so it's been a day of it.

And the rain.

Let me tell you something. New Yorkers do nothing lightly including rainfall. And of course I wouldn't buy an umbrella since combined, Kimberley and I have five. Not that I brought one of them to NY with me.

Anyway, lots of annoying things about this trip. But I'm moving in the direction of actually living there.

I've come to love that place on the corner of 38th and (I think) 7th, but it could be 8th ave. It's near Penn Station. The place with the extensive and not over-priced salad bars. You'd know it if you saw it. (Notice this nice picture of olde time new york I found. selling ties for only 35 cents! also, i just realize there's no "cents" sign on a mac keyboard. is that true or am i a fool?)

I never thought I'd say this but it's good to be back in Somerville.

Just finishing a 1 am bowl of my new favorite cereal, Vive by (groan) kashi.

I supposed sleeping is next on my list.

New reading material: Collected stories of Katherine Anne Porter (including Pale Horse, Pale Rider)
New music: anything where I can't hear other people talking on their cell phones.
New favorite pet: psych! cornelius forever!!!

Thursday, September 14, 2006

The Life Of A Dysfunctional Metronome


So, tomorrow afternoon I have another interview in the Bronx. Then I’m going to try to meet up with my other possible roommate.

Back and forth, back and forth…

I can’t believe how all over the place I am right now.

Tomorrow, off to Bronx and Brooklyn.
Then, Monday, I leave for Minneapolis and Duluth.
Then I come back to Boston a week later.
And finally, I move to Brooklyn on the first of October.

It’s not like me to be this go, go, go.
I’m excited to get to settle down a bit.

Went out dancing last night with Kimberley. At first, the music was kind of slow. We requested Prince and the bisexual DJ must not know anything about Prince because he played “Pop Life,” which is a good song, but not a fast dance song. The music started to pick up and we really got down. I’m going to miss our dance-a-thons when I’m not living here.

Oh! Kimberley and I saw a guy on his bike get hit by a car last night. He was okay, but it made me think about when I hit was on my bike and hit Adrian on his bike. So scary.

Fruit of the day: avocado

p.s. I realize this image is incredibly cheese-ridden but I couldn't help myself. I heart google images.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Park Slope, Baby!



So, I'm doing it! I'm taking the home in Park Slope in early October. I'm really excited, but also worried.

Excitement:
-perfect location (right above the tea lounge and across the street from the coop)
-nice roommate (we're alike, but also different, and I feel like we could get along well.)
-cute place (she did a good decorating job)
-great roof views (i can't wait to tak pictures from the roof, you can see everywhere and it's stunning.)
-not super expensive

Worries:
-our cats won't get along (we're going to give it a trial run and if it doesn't work, I'll find somewhere else)
-very small (no common space, small bedroom, tiny kitchen)
-not a lot of fresh air circulating through the place (not great when there will be two cats involved)

Wish me luck! Now I just need a job...

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Yesterday, All My Troubles Seemed So Yesterday


Yesterday Kim and I had a Queens brunch at 2:30 pm. Yup, it took a while to get going. My whole day was so NY food. Or at least NY food that I only partake in when I'm here.

I had:
a mimosa, a Mexican omlette (okay, but I need to stop eating Mexican food outside the Bay Area), three cups of coffee (Greek-style), and some potatoes.

We went to the Upper East Side so see this gallery that was featuring women comic artists. It could have been more extensive, but I loved the show. The gallery woman hadn't heard of Vanessa Davis, so I put in a plug for our high school superstar. Check out these two women who are new to me (I don't know how to hyperlink, so just google 'em): Debbie Dreschler and Diane Noomin (see picture). (They even had some Roz originals, which I know isn't original, but I was excited. Oh, and they had that woman who does those great pictures for The Drama Magazine, Miles. The ones we had hanging up in Mpls.)

Then we walked and walked, stopping at Gracious Home for Kim's attempt at retail therapy. I've never seen such practical purchases: a shoe holder and a catch for the kitchen sink. But it made her happy and I aim to please.

We were looking for a combo of coffee for me and ice cream for Kim. I refused every Starbuck's in an attempt to prove that we didn't have to stoop so low. And by 6:45, we didn't! We found our new tradition: Follow Me Cafe, the cutest and yummiest little place where we will gather a week before Kim's birthday (as it is now) every year that we live in the city.

I ate: hummus with warm and fresh foccacia, two lattes, and half of this warm apricot,vanilla ice cream, walnuts, and chocolate sauce dessert.

Then we spent twenty minutes in Duane Reade while I chose the perfect hair bands and concealor, since I left mine in Queens.

After this, we parted ways so I can meet up with the always wondrous Tara. We caught up, walked across the Brooklyn Bridge and back, and had a grand time. We've never lived in the same city so if I live here, it's going to be a whole new level of friendship. How excellent.

Eventually, I hopped a train back to Queens and met Kim and her friend (the one who thinks I look like Nelly Furtado) back at the place where I had my morning brunch. I had half a mojito (this time, delicious).

Finally, Kim and I found a tape of School of the Arts (the high school we went to before I moved to Interlochen) and let me tell you, I was such a ham. (Shocking!) I demanded camera time in every single thing we did. We watched two hours of game shows. I cannot believe they considered our classes educational. It's amazing what we got away with. Hours of complete silliness and inappropriateness.

When Kim and I were in a television class (we were both communications majors), our teacher lost herself. She was this normal, great woman who looked like a tv anchor and taught us all about the biz. One day, she stopped wearing makeup. The next day, her hair stopped being sprayed. Then, she came in and said something horrible to one of the heavier students in the middle of class. The same day, she called one of the kids in my class a "faggot." I really wish we had it on tape. The whole thing was completely surreal. He had just jumped on a plastic bag full of grapefruits while wearing a red rain slicker (it was for a game show). The grapefruit got all over the camera and she got so angry. Kim thinks she also threw a paper towel dispenser at him. I don't know about this. Anyway, next thing we knew, rumors were flying and she was fired. Kim remembers hearing that she caught her husband in bed with another woman and burned her house down. Ah, Florida. I just thought she was going through a rough divorce. The next time I saw her, she was working at a Natural Foods Store as a cashier in a plaza near my house. I was so ashamed for her that I didn't go back for a long time. Good old Palm Beach County School of the Arts.

Today's plan: buy Kim an early birthday brunch at the place of her choice, pack up and ship off to Boston. Hopefully I can get some reading done on the train. I'm so behind on school stuff.

p.s. I'm routing for Kim to have a blog.
p.p.s. song of the hour: anything Muzak, since I've decided working for Muzak could be a dream job.

here's the picture where we're twins


check it out

Nelly Furtado

Kim's friend thinks I look like Nelly Furtado.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Holy Land

I have been born again!

I arrived in NYC on the Acela Express (I know, travel in style) and met my parents for a salad. Guess where we went??? None other than the famous Skylight Diner. I kept picturing Ellen sitting across from me, playing with her latest digital accessory, eating three plates of food, and never blinking an eye.

Then they walked me to Times Square where I met Kim (not my sister, another Kim that I went to palm beack county school of the arts with) at her job at Nickelodeon. She has a signed picture of none other than Donovan (ie. Blues Clues guy) who I went to Interlochen with after I left PBCSOA. Small and weird world. What was more exciting was her signed Hanson autograph AND her personalized/signed TLC picture.

We went out for dinner in Park Slope, since I was looking at a place there. we had the worst mojito of our lives, which we sent back for the worst sangria of our lives. I'm convinced they took a bottle of Manishevitz and poured it into cups, sliced up three pieces of citrus for the rim, and called it "Sangria." Anyway, live and learn. Don't go to Park Slope for mojitos or sangria.

After looking at the apt. which was super cute but I think the other cat would terrorize Corny, we came back to Queens where Kim lives. We spent hours looking up people from high school as I grew more and more frightened of them.

One girl, who I won't mention her name here, is one of those never-a-child types. Do you know what I mean? She was always bizarrely adult in her behavior except for her strange, snorting laugh. I don't know how to understand her as a person. But as a wise man once said, people are not to be understood (Miles). But now he's retracting that.

Finally, it's early Saturday morning. Kim's still sleeping. I think we're going to go check out more places in Prospect Park and Crown Heights for my possible living situation. If you know of good Brooklyn places that I might like, tell me!!!

Tonight I might go to the beer garden with Kim and friends or I may try and catch up with Tara. Maybe Matt will come see me, too.

Aimee: I don't know what I want to do for work. I got a second interview with a queer youth org. but it's in long island which sounds really far and not fun. I really don't know what I want to do. please, please suggest away!

Oh! Though everyone on the train was too fun to talk with to read a lot, I did start The Night In Question by Tobias Wolff and it's a million times better than Lorrie Moore. (Riv, skip straight to this after you read the librarian story.)
Music: Digital Love by Daft Punk

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

87% Decided

After much banter with the loved ones, I've decided that there is no other choice for me. I must fulfill my destiny and move to New York. I think I'll move in October or around then. I'd like to be settled in a place before winter.

Feel free to help me find housing and a job. All advice is welcome.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Happy Day!

Having a couple days of an active social life with Beth, Grace, Kimkim, and Aleah. That's been helpful/nourishing.

I am so ridiculously happy because I got my mentor's latest response to my last submission. He likes my new story! I've got to brag a little now:

...I would have cottoned to your story because it involves such a deliciously complex mix of subjects and emotions - sex, death, religion, history, masculinity, coming of age - and because it explores these themes not in the abstract but through a compellingly tangible and engaging plot. The setting is richly detailed and believable. There's humor. There's pathos. I laughed, I cried, it was better than Cats!

The structure is simple but appropriate and effective: a frame narrative, in which we begin with a moment of high tension, backtrack to explain how the character ended up there, and then carry the action quickly to its conclusion.

The prose is crystal-clear and true. Your sentences have a straightforward, almost old-fashioned feel. I hope you don't mind my saying that I could hear the influence of Richard Yates (especially the Yates of "Eleven Kinds of Loneliness" throughout the story - especially in the opening page. Surely you know that from my POV, this is a good thing!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Weather, Birds, Dolly, and Bubbles (Also titled: Everything Is Connected and I've had too much coffee not to ramble)

Yesterday, Kimberley and I went clothes shopping so she'll be prepared for Fall Business Casual at the ridiculous Harvard where she works too hard without enough love/appreciation. We also found new glasses and they are so so so cute. I can't wait until I lose my eyesight so I can wear spectacles and look smart like everyone else in my family.

When we got back home, I had a silly idea that I needed a bubble tea so we went to the stand and I got almond (YUM!) and Kimkim got starfruuit (YUCK!). I like starfruit (reminds me of Matty's tree in Miami and being a little kid. Did MAtty die, mom?) but this tasted like disgusting prune juice.

I spent the next hour and a half begging my sister not to torture herself but she insisted on drinking it. She wouldn't take sips of mine because she said it reminded her how much better mine was than hers. Anyway, we watched "The Weather Man" (my second time, her first) and I still love that movie. Why do I love it so much? Maybe because I thought about becoming a meteorologist for a while (which makes me think about the Boston meteorologist who is pregnant, which is the first time I've ever seen a pregnant woman predict the weather and also, Boston is being unsurprisingly messed up about her predicting the weather AND being pregnant. did i mention that i don't like boston?).

Then, this morning I find out K's thrown up twice during the night. That starfruit won't leave her alone. So I went to Shaw's to get gingerale, saltines, and applesauce and here's what really gets me. This is the most typical Boston thing that's happened to me all weekend:
I'm waiting at the pedestrian crosswalk. I stop. A car stops to let me pass. Then, I'm half way across and the car honks at me. Apparently I was taking too long. So I have to run to the other side. Did I mention it's pouring out? People are such, you know whats.

I realize this is a kind of boring post, but I can't always be funny. Give me a break, would ya? Just kidding.

Today, maybe I'll finally hang out with my friend, Aleah. But it's raining and that means baby Gili wants to curl up in her room and read and do nothing. How come Cornelius gets to do whatever she wants and not feel guilty about it?

Finally, huge huge praise for Aimee and the amazing package. She's like a little hummingbird reminding me that life isn't that bad. Everyone should have a hummingbird like Aimee.

-Song of the day: Dolly Parton's "Save The Last Dance For Me"

-Truth be told: I'm not into Lorrie Moore's book. She's getting on my nerves. I'm really craving a book I love right now, but school dictates thought.
-Movie of the summer: The Weather Man. You're wrong, Riva. This is a (dare I say?) genius movie.

Friday, September 01, 2006

The Nightmare Is Realized

Riva,
Last night I dreamt I had four cats. One of them kept running away. I didn't bother chasing after the cat because I was exhausted from scooping all that litter.

Not amused (okay, slightly amused),
Gili

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Veena And Neena Saved My Life!


I'm back on the bellydancing. I love the DVDs. Not only am I running, but I'm also doing my farranic (spl?) arms, sidebends, and hip drops.

Two days ago, I was doing some bellydancing with Veena and Neena (the bellydancing twins seen above) and the narrator on the DVD says, "You'll see results in no time," which made me think, will I see results or will I not? I mean, I think what she was saying is soon, I'll see results. But it could also mean, there will not come a time when I see results. Since I used to have a very serious bellydancing regiment and never saw results, I'm kind of banking on not getting much from it, but I sure do love to shake my hips.

Yesterday, the narrator lady asked, "Are you having fun?" and I said, "not really," and she answered, "Good!" Is the woman inside Kimberley's DVD machine happy that I'm not having fun? Hard to say.

Last night I went out dancing with my wonderful sister. We shook what our mama gave us. Apparently, our mama gave us about the same thing since we both dance the same way. I love dancing. I think I'm going to try to go every week. It's not like I have anything else going on. Plus, I feel so good breaking it down.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Cornelius is Staring At Me Like I Should Be Ashamed...


I turned down the apartment offer that I got last night. I'm not having trouble getting offers, but I'm looking for something perfect. I liked the apt a lot and everything was great except the guy was a little too, I don't know. I can't say it without being offensive. He was a hippy. That's the best way to put it.

I had a job interview this morning that I skipped.

No running because it's raining, so I've spent all morning indoors. I think I'll do my bellydancing DVDs later. I've missed them.

I'm not moving to Chicago. It's decided.

Tonight I may check out a queer band that's playing somewhere around here.

In the meantime, I've been spending a lot of time thinking about how I feel like I've been falsely advertised to. I thought all ages divisible by 9 would be great, but 27 is a bust so far.

Onward and upward or some such.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Flipping A Gigantic Coin

There's this thing where once I start moving, I don't want to stop. I mean, I just got here but part of me wants to move on. When the going gets tough...

So, still running uphill to find work and housing. Here's the new question:

Chicago or Boston.

Pros of Boston:
1. already here
2. near my sister (actually I couldn't be closer to her unless I was sitting on her lap)
3. good public transport.
4. on the east coast which means easy access to lots of people i know and some people i love
5. where my school is located
6. could be nice if i could just get a job and a house
7. riva and miles may come here for school next year

Pros of Chicago:
1. really like the vibe
2. good public transport.
3. cheaper than boston
4. good art scene
5. feel like i might fit in better
6. nice queer community
7. in the great midwest

You decide. I'll do whatever you tell me to do.

songs of the day:
Chicago by Sufjan Stevens
New England by Jonathan Richman

Friday, August 25, 2006

Where Is Hashem When I Need Her?



Last night I went to my second housing possibility. When I showed up, I realized that the two women I would be living with were 23 year-old lesbians from Mount Holyoke. (We already knew I’m ageist.) I had constructed in my head this whole angelic scenario where I get there and can't believe how perfect they are. Why? Because their ad had virtually no information in it. I should have known.

So, not only were they baby lesbians, but (where do I start?) they had horse pictures all over their home. I mean all over. And there was no irony to any of it.

Anyone who has known me for more than half an hour knows that I despise horses. There's nothing I hate more than horses except horse-lovers. See the attached picture? That's a sample of the "art" covering their walls. Weird.

I'm pretty sure G-D is angry at me which is why I'm also posting this picture (taken in Minneapolis) where I'm sticking my tongue out at her. G-D is being a meany. Maybe I'm just not appreciative of the things I do have. Something to consider.

I try to have a sense of humor about all of this, but the truth is, nothing is feeling very funny. Job searching is harder than ever (I know my expectations are high, but still...), housing possibilities are non-existent, and it won't stop raining.

G-D, throw me a lifeline!

Reading: Birds of America (liking it, but wondering if I'm going to get tired of her style)
On repeat: I Should Of by The Pretenders

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Harriet, Kimberley, Transmen, and Me


After attending the lesbian moms' baby-naming for little Harriet (named after the fabulous dykey sleuth Harriet the spy), Kimberley and I spent most of yesterday walking around good old Jamaica Plain.

We were in search of the Harvest Food Coop, as I was convinced that they would have a giant housing bulletin board. We really could have used Harriet's help, since every time we asked for directions, we got lost. You know how this story turns out: after four hours, we finally found the coop and the bulletin board was measly with only one housing ad, which I had already read on craigslist. The only reason I thought they would have a bulletin is because every other coop in the country has one! Just that, nothing else. It was still great to check out JP, as this is where I plan to live with all the rest of the gays in the Boston area.

Anyway, this morning, I read the Sunday NY Times. The style section has a hilarious front-page article about how lesbians are threatened by transmen. Um, no. Not really been my experience. If anything, every dyke I know is desperate to get some transman into bed. Okay, not every single one, but sheesh. The NY Times is getting more and more laughable every week. They so desperately want to be on the frontlines of queer life, somehow thinking this is where the "hip" youngsters reside, but alas, their reporting is flat, boring, and totally outdated. Those silly reporters need to get it together.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

probably a stupid dilemma

so after i came back from running today (i just like the way that sounds. i really did go running, but it's so ridiculous to start a sentence like that, i mean come on!) i saw that kimberley's local paper was opened to a (none other than) good vibrations ad.
as many of you know, miles and i used to work there and that's how we met. it was the best/worst of times. now, here's the question: should i apply to work at the one that is in brookline? (yes, there's a goodvibes here.)
i know you'll probably say no, gili, you hated it there. but i did meet a lot of people and they pay well. and i don't have a job. confession: i called them up this morning and left a message asking if they're hiring. they might not even hire me back since i was such a troublemaker and was practically fired near the end.
tell me what to do. (miles, i'm well-versed on your opinion, so you are not obligated to write a manifesto at this time.)

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Going 80

There were lots of really emotional parts to my trip, but one surprise was passing Oberlin.

It was so weird, driving on 80, passing Elyria and Lorain and the sign for Antioch and Oberlin. I saw Black River and a sign for Cedar Point. I never thought I'd go back there, but I considered stopping for brunch at the Black River Cafe. Does it still exist? I got really nostalgic over our Sunday brunches: Matt, Vanya, Ellen, Riva, Jen, me, sometimes Danielle or others.

I cried a little thinking about the last five years (or is it six?) that I've been away from there. So much has changed and I've grown up in a lot of ways.

I thought about New Mexico, Key West, our trip to Massachusetts (Mountain Dew style), rugby tournaments, trips to Super K, my summer at Oberlin, so many things. I really got mushy about it.

Other things related to my trip (that made me feel something):
1. Passing Palmer, Mass where I used to attend camp.
2. Driving by Tara's hometown in Longmeadow.
3. Driving by Great Barrington (Catherine's home)
4. Realizing how connected my life has always been to Massachusetts (at least since I was old enough to attend camp here)
5. School bus in Wisconsin with a sign on the window that said "Jews Rock!!"
6. Dead bugs in my motel room
7. Great yummy Trader Joes food that kept me happy throughout the entire ride
8. My Sacred I-Pod (and listening to "Song For The Lonely" by Cher on repeat)
9. Cornelius' good behavior and love
10. Miles' great phone conversations and love
11. Dad's great navigational skills around Boston (via my cell phone)
12. Really horrible traffic in Illinois (Aimee, what's that about?) and the thousands of tolls that sucked up all my money, but the incredible friendliness of all the toll workers
13. Kimberley helping me unpack my stuffed vw
14. Lake Erie up by Buffalo (an old train passing by). this was by far the most scenic moment in my trip (though a lot of Massachusetts came in second place).

Anyway, it's surreal to be in Somerville. I got up this morning and walked up Mass Ave to find a cat scratcher. Here I am again.

I don't think I'm ready for another Big Cry yet, but I've been leaking tears since I left.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Wish Me Luck

Off to the East Coast. I'm planning on driving 8-hour days or so. I should arrive in Somerville Sunday night or Monday morning depending on how things work out.

Lots of love and feel free to call me along the way. I'll need someone to talk with besides Cornelius.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Pre-Annotation: Some Literary-ish Thoughts





I've finished "Lives of Girls and Women" by Munro and "Breakfast At Tiffany's" by Capote. Both are very different. I haven't written my annotations yet, but I need to get this off my chest:

1. I really don't feel very attached to Capote. Loved the movie, not excited about the writer. What gives? The characters are fine, nothing to jump up and down over. I want to like him but it's really a take it or leave it kind of situation.

2. Munro has a big brain. I'm not sure I understand what goes on in there and I don't know how she does it. But I really do think she's a living, breathing genius. Intimidation comes to mind. I don't think her book is perfect and I wouldn't have made a lot of the choices she made, but come on, the woman is a work of brilliance. I've got to absorb as much as possible just in case there's a chance some geniosity leaks off the page and into my smaller brain.

For those of you getting a head start: next I'm reading Lorrie Moore's "Birds of America" (everyone loves her, let's face it. I've read a short-story from this book, but I'm excited to read it in its entirety). And I'll be reading Tobias Wolff's "The Night in Question." Stay tuned.

Big Changes

Friday will be my last day living in Minneapolis. I'm moving to the east coast.

My job is over, my stuff mostly packed. It's weird to be leaving. Weird isn't really the right word. It's sad and surreal. I have moments when all of this rushes over me. I don't really want to go into the specifics on this blog. I just wanted to give the head's up.

I'm going to be driving alone across country, something I've never done before. I'm nervous and excited for the adventure. Well, I won't be completely alone because Cornelius will be with me. She usually sleeps in the car.

I don't know what else to say.

Friday, August 04, 2006

True Toe Story


This evening Miles and I were driving home with the windows down. I had my feet up on the dashboard like always.

A woman pulled up next to us at a red light in a blue Chevy minivan. She has curly dyed black hair and big sunglasses. I didn't even notice her until she called out to me:

"Look at those cute little toes! Does your mommy love them? I bet she does."

I said thanks (I think) and then the light turned green. I swear this happened. If Miles hadn't been there, I might not believe it. I'm not telling this story because I'm begging for toe compliments. (I know they're cute.)

I'm telling it because people love to talk to me. Strangers are always saying weird things to me. This is just the most current example.

p.s. mom, do you love my toes?

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Part Two: Straight Girls Love To Put Makeup On Me



Here's two more pictures from my day at the Aveda Institute. Yup, this is what happens when I go there.

Song of the day: Break Up To Make Up (get it?) by The Stylistics

Drag Queen Gili



Riva wanted to see what I look like after a day at Aveda. Here's my drag queen eyes. That's all you're getting.
xoxo

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Chocolate Covered Bagel

Been a while since my last food post.

I want a chocolate covered bagel. Some say this is just another couple words for a doughnut, but I disagree. I want a real live bagel covered in chocolate.

Maybe this can be a new product that I create and market. I really could be on to something.

A Steinsky Original.

p.s. I heart Alice Munro. Genius material.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

I Can't Breathe...


Heat stroke is imminent.

Is there a kind of animal that can't sense temperature?
I want to be that animal.

Yesterday, for most of the day, the power was out all over our neighborhood. That meant no A.C., no fans, no nothing. The power would come on for four minutes, then off again, then back on, then off. Cars ran into each other at intersections. Babies were crying. Plus, I had to help some friends move. Even cold baths didn't help.

Miles ended up sleeping on the porch because it was cooler outside.

The electricity is back on but my spirit has dissipated.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Special Announcement For All Consumers


Good news:
Sony bravia has a new commercial: fun with paint
Bad news:
I don't think you can watch it online yet
Plus, I hope this plant didn't get hurt in the making of the commercial. Ohterwise, I'm going to be truly disappointed.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Going Batty

Last night there was another flying mammal in our apartment. I thought that little electronic plug thing was supposed to prevent rodents from wanting to be in our house. I was feeling so hopeful that it was just going to be that one time. But no.

Like last time, Cornelius started running around in circles. I sat up and woke Miles. And like last time, I put a sheet over my head, but instead of walking to the bathroom, I crumbled to the floor. I thought the flying mammal would run into me if I walked there, so I just sank down. Then Miles guided me (as I crawled) into the bathroom and I closed the door.

Miles used the old sheet trick, which eventually sent the animal out through our back porch.

Hats off to the bravery of Miles and Cornelius.

Let's hope this is the last time.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow?

I couldn't resist the ridiculous title.

Important question, please answer:
Should I cut all my hair off? See before and after.




Thanks.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Keeping The Fictional Dream Alive: Part Two

I was offered a new job working for a queer philanthropic foundation. They pay well and the hours are good. But, I don't really like working and I don't really like working for small nonprofits. On the othe hand, I've had just about enough of my current boss. Her instability is way more than I can handle.
Alternative solution:
Purchasing the Northern Michigan Artisan Bakery that's currently for sale. I saw it on craigslist. Check out these pictures. Plus the place comes with a three bedroom/two bath apartment. It's really beautiful up there (it's pretty close to Interlochen).




Small problems include but are not limited to:
1. lack of interest in owning a bakery
2. lack of knowledge on how to run a bakery
3. lack of desire to wake up early and bake
4. current schooling
5. fear of living in michigan again (especially a small town that may enjoy hunting and militia activities)
Benefits:
1. wouldn't have to go out to eat
2. could start steinsky bagels
3. i might smell like fresh dough most of the time

Take a look at these pictures. You tell me what to do and I'll do it.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Jesus Died For Somebody's Mail

But Not Mine.

I just got back from an early morning walk to the post office. While I was standing in line, waiting to mail my envelope, I realized that the post office was blasting Christian Pop Music.

Naturally, I started trembling, looking into the faces of other customers to see if they were also outraged. Nothing. People were tapping along, enjoying the music! For some reason, when it was my turn in line, I didn't say anything. I mean, is it legal for the post office to blast Christian music?

All I could do was bite down on my tongue, nodding and smiling.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Spaceman in Duluth


I'm in Duluth for the weekend, visiting Bubbie, Zaddie, Uncle Steve, Aunt Pat, Uncle Sam, and Mom and Dad.
It's a beautiful day here, the sun is shining, but I haven't actually gone outside since I've been working on my manuscript all morning. So the sky is blue and the sun is shining, but my view is of the hotel's back parking lot and the backyards of some Duluth residents.
My ITunes just played "Spaceman" by 4 Non Blondes. Some of you Obies will remember how much Jen loved this song. I love it too.
I like to think I have a special connection to the song since my drum teacher in San Francisco, Dawn Richardson, was in 4 Non Blondes. (She was also Prince's drummer and went on tour with him.) Here's a picture of my fabulous teacher and the lyrics for everyone to appreciate:

4 Non Blondes - Spaceman

Starry night bring me down
Till I realize the moon
It seems so distant yet I felt it pass right through
And I see what I see a new world is over me
So I'll reach up to the sky
And pretend that I'm a spaceman
In another place and time
I guess I'm looking for a brand new place
Is there a better life for me?
Subtle wind blow me gone
Let me rest upon your move
I trust I'll end up sleeping cradled in my doom
And I feel what I feel
I can't grasp what is not real
So I'll get myself real high
And imagine I'm a spaceman
In another place and time
I guess I'm looking for a brand new place
Is there a better life for me?
I remember in my mind
They say I'm daydreaming
Is it all that it seems
Or am I all the things I'm looking for? ?
And I see what I see a new world is over me
And I'll reach up to the sky
And imagine I'm a spaceman
In another place and time
I guess I'm looking for a brand new place
I remember living in a different life
Is there a better life for me?

P.S. Happy Birthday to my best friend, Riva! I love you and miss you!!!

Monday, July 10, 2006

Chicago Essay: A Literary Adventure


Chicago is excellent. We’re having so much fun. Let me tell you all about it.
As we got out of the airport terminal, we saw forty or so Teen Challenge kids heading towards their gate. Real live Teen Challengers!! That’s the thing where they promise not to have sex for like the rest of their lives or something. Then we saw a real live Keith Haring mural at the airport (kind of the opposite of Teen Challenge, you know?).
Right before we got to our hotel, I watched a skinny woman pick up a flattened, dead pigeon off the street and run with it across through a busy intersection, throwing the bird into the bushes right next to where we were standing. Then she ran back across the street as fast as a live pigeon. I swear. In all my years, I’ve never seen anything like it.
At the hotel, we asked where to go for sushi, but on our way there, we walked right into Taste of Chicago. For over two hours, we stuffed ourselves with pizza, crab cakes, garlic-dipped plantain chips, pad thai, latkes, bbq chicken sandwich, and brownies. It was the best welcome ever.
Then we went to a park near downtown and watched children play in an outdoor fountain-type place where people’s faces were superimposed onto structures. It’s hard to explain, but the theme is: there’s really cool public art here. Plus, I love all the old buildings and architecture.
After that we came home and slept, bellies full and happy.
Today we got up early and went to Wicker Park. We ran into some Oberlin people, who remember me better than I remember them (no big surprise there). One girl is named Leah (Riv, remember her?) and she was in all of my classes. It was a weird flashback especially since she knew everything about me. She was nice enough and so was the other girl.
I am in love with Myopic Bookstore. It’s a lot like the place I work, but has fewer books than the Bookhouse. I want to live inside of it and read all the books. We also went to Quinby’s and checked out the comic/zine selection, though it’s a lot like Big Brain in Minneapolis and I like B.B. better since it’s less manly mannish.
Finally I need to mention the amazing Alliance Bakery. We didn’t get anything, but the cakes in the windows look amazing. That will definitely need to be tested before going back home.
I’m loving Chicago (despite the Obie-spotting).
It’s later in the evening. We’re determined to get the most out of this trip and so we visited Andersonville and Lincoln Park. They were both fun to visit but the fun really happened back at the hotel. Background: it seems that the Greek world unites in our hotel. Greeks are everywhere and they flow through the halls and out into the lobby. Seriously, I’ve never seen so many Greek people in one place. Anyway, when we got to our floor, there was a teenage Greek party near the elevator. When we turned the corner towards our room, two Greek teenagers were sitting on the floor, one girl crying and one boy listening.
These are the exact words that the Greek girl said (while crying): “I am so proud to be Catholic. I don’t drink and I am so proud of that. I am not sexual and I am so proud of that.”
Isn’t that amazing? It was too amazing to be true. I feel like we walked into a goldmine. I’m not going to be able to upload this for a while so I’ll probably keep adding to it. More to come…
It’s the end of another day in Chicago. I want to say how sad I am that I never got to read Aimee’s suggestions about what to do in Chicago, so we’ve been winging it. On the plus side, my parents are also in the city right now (staying somewhere else, we haven’t seen them at all since we got here) and when I called them tonight, they said they are taking Aimee’s suggestions. They’ve been to at least two restaurants recommended by Aimee. Next time we come to Chicago, I promise to use Aimee’s guide.
Anyway, today was really action-packed. We started our day having breakfast in Wicker Park. It was pretty good but our second trip to Myopic was horrible. The woman working had major attitude and when we left, I never wanted to go back. I will go back, but not when that mean woman is working.
I won’t go into all the details of the day, but here are the main points:
-We went to four bookstores today, one in Hyde Park, one in Wicker Park, one in Lincoln Square, and one in Andersonville.
-We caught the last twenty minutes of Alison Bechdel, talking about her new book in a women’s bookstore. (In my strong opinion, this book is a big disappointment and not nearly as good as her others, but I’m glad she’s having success and good reviews. She deserves it.) (See picture of me with A.B. in background.)
-We found a used copy of Tobias Wolff’s “The Night In Question” for five bucks at one of the Powells Stores.
-After browsing three different Powells locations and Myopic Bookstore, there are officially no used copies of “Breakfast At Tiffany’s” (the Vintage edition) and “The Collected Stories of Cheever” in Chicago.
This is becoming long because my lack of internet. Tomorrow morning, Miles and I are going to Alliance Bakery for breakfast. Then, my parents are meeting us and we’re trying out one of Aimee’s picks (according to my parents) for lunch. In the afternoon, the four of us are driving back to Minneapolis.
p.s. finally internet connection! we're at the heartland for lunch. my parents are on the way. this place is so cute! we're loving it and i'll write more later. thanks for all your help, aimee. at least my parents used your advice and next time we come, we promise to check our email first. hopefully we can see you when we come back.

Friday, July 07, 2006

Dreaming In Fiction


Chicago fast fact:
In September, 1910, pioneer airman Walter Brookins flew over the Loop and the lake several times in front of a crowd of twenty thousand. (See photo.)
Today, Miles and I will partake in this historical experience. We fly to Chicago in the afternoon.
We know nothing about Chicago, so suggestions for things to do are greatly appreciated.

Along with Richard Yates, I am reading the often pretentious, but also informative "The Art of Fiction" by the late John Gardner. I'd like to share my favorite quote from the book (unfortunately when he speaks about authors, he uses male prnouns, so just suck it up, as I have had to do.)

"He [the writer] writes by feel, intuitively, imagining the scene vividly and copying down its most significant details, keeping the fictional dream alive, sometimes writing in a thoughtless white heat of 'inspiration,' drawing on his unconscious, trusing his instincts, hoping that when he looks back at it later, in cool objectivity, the scene will work."

I don't believe in "objectivity", but I do believe in keeping the "fictional dream alive". What a beautiful description of the writing trance.

Music of the day: anything by Chicago (I admit that I own nothing by Chicago, but what else would be relevant?)

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

back to life, back to reality

I'm home in Minneapolis. Finished "Hula" which I recommend (I better, since it's supposed to be similar to how I write). I thought Lisa Shea did an amazing job describing scenes without hard-hitting emotional information. Maybe that doesn't make sense. I have no time to write since I'm going back to work today, but I'll explain more at a later date. I might just post my craft annotation once I've written it.

I'm reading "Collected Stories of Richard Yates." I have been in love with his writing since high school and it's so amazing that I get to dive right back in for this MFA. The picture I'm posting is a cover of one short story collection, "Eleven Kinds of Loneliness" that I really suggest you read. It's perfection.
In two days, Miles and I are going to Chicago to celebrate four years. So much is going on but I just wanted to write and say I'm alive and back home.
More details to come...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

"Another day is over so a new day will begin" -Annie Lennox

I'm over the hill! My first residency is finished. Today is my last day in the greater boston area before returning home to Miles and Cornelius. Everyone kept saying the week went by so quickly but this felt like the longest week of my life.
Yesterday I went into Boston with J.D., a girl from my program. She's definitely my closest friend which is so bizarro since she's a polite, Christian, girl from the south, and she's a few years younger than me. But wherever I can get a friend, I'll take it. If I liked Boston, it would have been a cool field trip, but I don't so the field trip was uncool. Two best parts:
1. We went to Mike's on the Northend and I got the best tiramisu of my life
2. J.D. wasn't holding onto the rail on the green line and when the T lurched, she flew across to the other side and ended up on some woman's lap. It was incredible. I watched her flying and the next thing I knew, she was looking deep into the eyes of a stranger.

I feel like I should have some big concluding paragraph here about what I learned during my first residency and how I will apply it throughout the semester, but that's so terribly nerdy and let's face it, I am taking the day off.
Tonight my big sister and I are going to her friend, C's home in Lincoln for some movie watching and dinner. The rest of my day is completely open.
A big hello to Miles' new bloggy blog. (The link is to the right.) Let's face it, the man's a genius.

song I'm listening to: Brand New Day by Eurythmics
book I'm reading: Hula by Lisa Shea
short story I read this morning and liked a lot: Facing the Music by Larry Brown