happiness is meeting with my mentor/professor (a nice jewish gay man) one on one.
i forgot that the reason why i'm doing low-residency is because i like being alone, or in my own grounded world. i don't get a lot from being surrounded by writers all the time. or even a lot of the time. i like knowing other people's processes but that doesn't mean we have anything in common besides writing.
i'm in a whole new good place right now. michael gave me a ton of support AND an amazing book list and feedback session. since tomorrow is the first time one of my manuscripts will be workshopped (one of two that will be workshopped before i leave), it's really good that i feel visible and real and appreciated and so many other good things.
it's so weird to go from falling furhter and further into isolation and disconnection and then to have one talk with a key player and get right back on the horse (yuck, i hate horses. let's say kayak) and keep going.
i am here for a reason. i am going to get a lot out of this.
and while all of that is happening i get to read and write and have a teacher who G-E-T-S me!!!! (i don't know why i just spelled out "gets". maybe it needed to sound like a cheer.)
song of the current moodswing:
"Ask" by The Smiths:
Shyness is nice and
Shyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life
You'd like to
So, if there's something you'd like to try
If there's something you'd like to try
Ask me I wont say no, how could I?
Coyness is nice, and
Coyness can stop you
From saying all the things in
Life you'd like to
So, if there's something you'd like to try
If there's something you'd like to try
Ask me I wont say no, how could I?
Spending warm Summer days indoors
Writing frightening verse
To a BUCKTOOTH girl in Luxembourg
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Because if it's not Love
Then it's the bomb, the bomb, the bomb,
the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb
That will bring us together
Nature is a language - can't you read ?
Nature is a language - can't you read ?
So, ask me, ask me, ask me,
Ask me, ask me, ask me
Because if it's not Love
Then it's the bomb, the bomb, the bomb,
the bomb, the bomb, the bomb, the bomb
That will bring us together
If it's not Love
Then it's the bomb
Then it's the bomb
That will bring us together
So, ask me, ask me, ask me,
Ask me, ask me, ask me
